So I've started telling people

My logical brain tells me that I should wait. 6 weeks into a 40 week pregnancy really isn't that far along. As much as I don't want to sound like a pessimist, I've still got another 6 weeks to make it through that first trimester, and hopefully start to feel a bit more "safe" about this pregnancy. Now I certainly don't want to dwell on everything that could go wrong, because otherwise I'll be a wreck, and I think that it's important that I stay healthy so that this baby will be healthy! But in the back of my mind, every time I feel a twinge in my uterus (which is pretty frequent), I am scared to death that I'll go to the bathroom and find what I don't want to see. The positive tests are still in plain sight in the bathroom, where I can re-assure myself that yes, I really am pregnant.

I decided last night that I just couldn't wait, and called to tell my mom. She seemed really excited for us. Today I got confirmation that she definitely is - she already told Aunty Holly! When I got to work on Thursday, I knew 3 people who were finding out - Chrissy, Jen & Ann. I also ended up telling Barbara and Meg. This morning, since Patti and I were the only ones in at 7 this morning, I told her. She was SO excited! She jumped up, gave me a big hug - it was just so sweet! Of course, she was then afraid that I'd be leaving! I reminded her that I've got the FT job w/benefits right now, and since the baby will be born while Todd's still in school, I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. :-)

I've decided that I'm going to try and be confident and just presume that come January, I'll be holding our sweet child. I look at it this way - Kirsten is 3/3, my mom was 5/5 and my grandmother was 5/6. She has even admitted that the miscarriage she had was probably a blessing, as her body just wasn't ready to have another baby so soon after having Uncle Tommy and Mom. So I just have to look to my genetics, and remember that I come from hardy Yankee stock, and we're good at having babies.

Ok, so I'm both tired and hungry right now. I think it's time to fix a snack, and maybe nap for a little bit. :-)

What a huge day!

So here I am, about 12 hours into the realization that yes, Todd and I will be having a baby. Does it seem real yet? Not really. Right now I feel like I'm still just waiting to get my period, but the 2 positive tests in the bathroom seem to say otherwise I guess!

I should start getting ready for work I suppose...but I wanted to get this going. When we got engaged, I had grand plans of keeping a journal about the experience. This was before the age of blogs. But this time...well this time I really want to remember things, because I want to be able to tell this baby all about the time he/she was chilling in mom, waiting to make a grand appearance unto the world.

What a crazy ride we've started...one that I was starting to worry was never going to happen. But I guess that everything happens for a reason, and when the time is right, and right now, even though it's still a little ahead of when I thought would be perfect, well now I couldn't imagine anything but January of 2007 as the perfect time to have a baby. :-)